We’re 15 weeks into this journey of mine, and I am finally ready to sit down and share some stuff with you guys. Finally.
It took me a long time to be comfortable enough to write this post, let alone publish it. This is stuff that is close to my heart; controversial stuff that some of you just might call me out on. But I’m okay with that.
So I’m down to 199 lbs!—pause for celebration—Can’t say for sure when the last time I saw that number was, because for several years I absolutely refused to weigh myself. I think it was the right choice at the time, because I struggle with becoming obsessive about such things, but times are different now.
I’ve lost 21 lbs and I’m really proud of myself 🙂 I picked up an 18 lb weight bar and it felt really heavy to me. I can’t believe I have lost that whole bar plus 3. Just can’t believe it.
Even though I am doing so good, I still think that 199 isn’t the most healthy number I could be seeing. It’s just not ideal. But I’m still proud of myself for not jumping ship! At this point I just can’t. It has nothing to do with vanity or looks…no, I just didn’t feel healthy, and no wonder…220 lbs isn’t funny. YES I was loved and YES I was beautiful, but my health was being compromised. Big time. It was time!
In January I started watching Biggest Loser again for the first time since season 6 or 7, and all of a sudden I was SO motivated! And as I mentioned before, I joined loseit.com and started training for the Sun Run, and here we are. Imagine that. Exercise and healthy eating actually works!
21 lbs down, and 34 to go till my perceived goal. I chose a total of 55 lbs to lose because 165 was my healthiest weight for ME, and that’s where I’d like to be. But I am not going to kill myself to get there. So far I feel like the choices I have been making have been healthy, but if I notice myself heading down a dangerous path just to see that number on the scale, I will need to reevaluate things. I refuse to be a slave to a number. I just want to feel good.
The theme on Biggest Loser this season is No Excuses. And I’m really starting to live such a life. Through ups and downs and rain and snow and sun, I am learning to make no excuses for living a healthy life, and I hope that never changes!
To those of you who are also on this bandwagon, and I know it’s quite a few of you, keep your flag waving high! We are SO doing this!